Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I'd Give Myself a D+

Some days, I feel like I'm really doing a crappy job.

Days when there are toys scattered all.over.the.floor....the floor which hasn't been vacuumed since Bob did it a week or two ago.

Days when I plop down in front of the kids and cry before 9 a.m.

Days when it seems like Sam is intentionally doing the exact opposite of everything he knows he should, or shouldn't, or the exact opposite of what I ask him to do.

Days when I can't move quickly enough to pick up after Grey AND catch him before he opens the trash can and sticks something gross in his mouth for the millionth time, sticks a small magnet or one of my earrings in his mouth, or picks up a plastic bag with a dirty diaper in it and decides to chew. {{shudder}}

Days when I cannot get past the exasperation that set in after the kids dropped their sippy cups on the floor 3 times each during breakfast, Sam needed to go to the potty twice during breakfast, and Grey has let his milk dribble all down his chin...again.

Days when I talk mean or yell at the kids, especially when I see that behavior come back at me from the mouth of my almost 3 year old (almost 3?!?!).

That's all. Just some days I feel like I'm doing a really crappy job.


jessica said...

You're such a great mom...just being able to admit this says so. love you! keep up the good work!

and we would love to come to bham for a visit soon. =)

Jenna said...

i'm with you, greta. 'cept i'm more like an f minus today.

Katie said...

You know how much I admire you, but I'll say it again anyway: You are amazing!! Your boys are very blessed to have you. Perfect is a myth. Good enough is just fine. Grace, grace, grace, ok?
I love you!

Sara said...

Oh Greta...this sounds SO familiar! Especially the last few months of my pregnancy with Ava Grace! I really began to believe that Isaac had it out for me! I had so many days where I would lose it with him!

Thanks for sharing and making us all feel a little more normal! :)

Lindsay said...

I think you're an excellent mom, but you know that I totally empathize with what you're feeling right now. Totally. Your boys are so great, though. And they probably wouldn't be if you were truly doing a D+ job raising them.

Alicia said...

I've had those days with just my one! It happens to the best of us. You are an awesome mom with two beautiful boys who always look so happy and loved in every picture I've ever seen of them :)

Sarah said...

Grace, grace, grace! It's not easy to be chasing two boys under 3 while cooking up another one. I have two kiddos as well, boy and girl, and expecting #3 in March. My oldest is almost 4, so my life is a mite easier than yours. Take heart - something magical happens at 3, they kind of "join the team" and stop being bent on twarting you.

By the way - I've been a bloggy reader of your for a while. Grey and my little boy are a few weeks apart in age. I have to confess I chuckled at your unexpected blessing, thankful it wasn't me, only to discover the next month it was! Something about being pregnant twice in one year has taken quite a toll on me and I bet it is on you as well.

And, I've read that cleaning your house while your children are still little is like shoveling the walk while it is still snowing :). It's quite a daunting task.

Shea said...

I hear ya!! We ALL have those days! And, don't worry Graham has had both pee and poop in his mouth from our toilet training days with Savannah. Y'all are not alone!

Rachel Garcia said...

i feel ya friend. Especially while preggers. You are doing a fantastic job. tackle what you can and leave the rest. focus on the majors: food, clothing, poop. then just plop..on the couch. prop up your feet and grow a human. Those boys will survive. I promise. when i was pregnant with #4, i finally realized that I didn't have to do it all. One day at a time. You are doing great!!

Anonymous said...

Greta, you are a wonderful mother.
Believe it or not I have been in the same situation that you seem to be in right now. It WILL get better. Before you know it Sam and Grey and this other little one you are expecting will be all grown up and you will wonder where the years went. Just handle what you can and let the rest "slide" until you can get to it. Love you much.

melissa richie said...

this post broke my heart because i totally know how you feel.

you don't need me to tell you that you're a great mom ( you are) or that there will be better days (there will) but you're a child of God, and He loves you (and your babes) perfectly. all the time. i know you know that, but i never hurts to hear it, eh (i'm telling it to myself right now, too).

i agree with rachel. plop yo'sef down on the couch. send bob out for PSL and work on growing some eyelashes on that little boy :)